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Views from the Choir Loft

“Are You God?” On the Impact We Have as Church Musicians

Keven Smith · May 4, 2021

NE WEEKDAY EVENING A FEW YEARS AGO, I was directing our parish choir in singing a High Mass. I couldn’t help but notice a little blond boy sitting near the back of the church with his family. He was pretty well-behaved overall—especially for a roughly three-year-old—but he kept turning around and looking up at the choir loft in wonderment. (In my book, that’s no vice.)

After Mass, I unlocked the choir room, and all our singers paraded through to put their music away. A few minutes later, I was alone—or so I thought. I erased our music lineup from the chalkboard. I closed the lid of the piano. I put away a couple of stray folders. I stacked up the propers, ordinaries, and motets and put them in the filing cabinet.

That’s when I noticed him: the little blond boy. He had found his way into the choir room and was standing in the corner, silently staring at me as I scurried about putting everything in order. At last, he spoke:

“Are you God?”

 

An Honest Answer to the Little Boy’s Question

This is more than just a cute story. Ever since that evening, I’ve thought back to that boy and pondered the lesson he unwittingly taught me.

In the eyes of a small child, the people making music up in the loft are larger than life. Part of it is the mere fact that we’re up high, upstairs, where small children generally aren’t allowed to go. Part of it is that we’re mostly adults and teenagers—people who naturally look huge to a child.

But more significantly, we’re involved in something children can’t yet understand through the intellect, and yet it speaks to their souls. It is written on our hearts that there is a God, that He is almighty, that He is everywhere, and that He deserves our worship. Even children sense this. I believe they grasp it better when the Mass is veiled in a dead language—and when it uses types of music they don’t hear in everyday life, accompanied by the King of Instruments.

Most of this also applies to adults, of course. They just don’t express it with the same simplicity. An adult’s intellect is well-formed enough to know that the guy directing the choir is a mortal who has weeds in his front yard and drives an old Honda Fit. An adult may use more sophisticated words when he tries to explain what beautiful liturgy does to his soul, but he’ll still struggle.

Even when he knows he wants to be a part of it, he may feel profoundly unworthy to do so. This is something I’ve been keeping in mind as I’ve handled the recent flurry of new interest in our parish choir. The extended lockdown here in California has caused many people to reboot their lives, trimming the activities that had become mere routines and freeing themselves up for more of the sacred.

And so part of my job is to explain to them that we’re all just ordinary people who work hard to make the Mass more beautiful. It can be challenging to convince people that they belong in the loft, and that it’s OK to be human. But I figure that’s better than having them join us looking for a hobby and then trying to sell them on the sacredness of our pursuit.

Precious Yet Fleeting

After watching me pack up for a few more minutes, the little boy spoke again:

“Are you Mexican?”

Well, I probably do eat enough Mexican food to “convert.” At that age, the moments of insight are precious yet fleeting. But this child had already given me a valuable keepsake. I share it here hoping it will help you keep striving to uplift your fellow parishioners as you glorify God at every liturgy.

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About Keven Smith

Keven Smith, music director at St. Stephen the First Martyr, lives in Sacramento with his wife and five musical children.—(Read full biography).

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President’s Corner

    Simplest “Agnus Dei” Ever Published
    Our choir is on break during the month of July. I needed a relatively simple “Agnus Dei,” so I composed this setting for organ & voice in honor of Saint René Goupil. It has been called the simplest setting ever composed. I love CARMEN GREGORIANUM (“Gregorian Chant”), especially the ALLELUIAS, INTROITS, and COMMUNION ANTIPHONS. That being said, some have pointed out that certain sections of the Kyriale aren’t as strong as the Graduale or Vesperale. There’s a reason for this—but it would be too complicated to explain at this moment.
    —Jeff Ostrowski
    14th Sunday in Ordinary Time (Year C)
    Our choir is on break during the month of July. However, on the feasts website, the chants have been posted for the 14th Sunday in Ordinary Time (Year C), which is this coming Sunday: 6 July 2025.
    —Jeff Ostrowski
    Bugnini’s Statement (6 November 1966)
    With each passing day, more is revealed about how the enemies of the liturgy accomplished their goals. For instance, Hannibal Bugnini deeply resented the way Vatican II said Gregorian Chant “must be given first place in liturgical services.” On 6 November 1966, his cadre wrote a letter attempting to justify the elimination of Gregorian Chant with this brazen statement: “What really gives a Mass its tone is not so much the songs as it is the prayers and readings.” Bugnini’s cadre then attacked the very heart of Gregorian Chant (viz. the Proprium Missae), bemoaning how the Proprium Missae “is completely new each Sunday and feast day.” There is much more to be said about this topic. Stay tuned.
    —Jeff Ostrowski

Quick Thoughts

    Pope Pius XII Hymnal?
    Have you ever heard of the Pope Pius XII Hymnal? It’s a real book, published in the United States in 1959. Here’s a sample page so you can verify with your own eyes it existed.
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    “Hybrid” Chant Notation?
    Over the years, many have tried to ‘simplify’ plainsong notation. The O’Fallon Propers attempted to simplify the notation—but ended up making matters worse. Dr. Karl Weinmann tried to do the same in the time of Pope Saint Pius X by replacing each porrectus. You can examine a specimen from his edition and see whether you agree he complicated matters. In particular, look at what he did with éxsules fílii Hévae.
    —Corpus Christi Watershed
    Antiphons Don’t Match?
    A reader wants to know why the Entrance and Communion antiphons in certain publications deviate from what’s prescribed by the GRADUALE ROMANUM published after Vatican II. Click here to read our answer. The short answer is: the Adalbert Propers were never intended to be sung. They were intended for private Masses only (or Masses without music). The “Graduale Parvum,” published by the John Henry Newman Institute of Liturgical Music in 2023, mostly uses the Adalbert Propers—but sometimes uses the GRADUALE text: e.g. Solemnity of Saints Peter and Paul (29 June).
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Random Quote

“Only against this background, of the effective denial of the authority of Trent, can one understand the bitterness of the struggle against allowing the celebration of Mass according to the 1962 Missal after the liturgical reform. The possibility of so celebrating constitutes the strongest, and thus (for them) the most intolerable contradiction of the opinion of those who believe that the faith in the Eucharist, as formulated by Trent, has lost its validity.”

— Cardinal Ratzinger, 2001

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