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Views from the Choir Loft

Why are you sad, O my soul?

Veronica Brandt · April 18, 2020

When I was making draft hymnbooks, I cut pictures from old calendars to adorn the front covers. This one really struck me at the time.

“Christ in the Desert” by Ivan Kramskoi (1872)

Maybe it’s so stereotypically Russian. Maybe it summed up what I was feeling at the time, arranging compromises on what to include in the books, printing 30 copies of close to 300 page books, cutting into my thumb through the thumbnail with the guillotine, gluing and covering each book, finding typos every other week. Finding out halfway through the design stage that Corpus Christi Watershed were producing the Campion Hymnal which would have served admirably had our budget been ten times bigger. Or had we had a budget.

A handful of the surviving draft hymnbooks

Now I find myself in a very different situation.

At first I was anxious and even may have been depressed. I thought too much about exponential curves and washing my hands. I even looked forward to isolation if it meant less worry.

Now it is over a month since I last attended Mass. Which is a pretty short time in the bigger scheme of things. I am able to sing Compline each night with my family. We say the rosary together. I can watch a livestream of our local FSSP Mass every morning. But I still feel sad.

Mass on the big screen in our cluttered living room.

I usually worry a lot about the Easter ceremonies. The last few years my responsibility has mainly been for the Easter Sunday Mass, which was fairly sparsely attended anyway. Then there was going to be a week of Easter Masses for a homeschool camp. All cancelled.

I guess I am relieved that I don’t bear that responsibility. I am glad to be able to sit with my little children and point out what happens during Mass on a screen in our living room. I am glad my bigger children still feel the importance of attending Mass in some form. But I still feel sad.

Then, in an online talk, our priest pointed out that it is alright to feel sad. The loss of receiving Communion is a real thing. There are tragedies unfolding all over the world. The other alternative would be indifference, and that would be a real tragedy.

At the beginning of Vetus Ordo Mass, the priest recites the psalm that goes: Quare tristis es, anima mea, et quare conturbas me? Why are you sad, O my soul, and why dost thou disquiet me? The next line answers: Spera in Deo Hope in the Lord, I will again be praising thee.

I remember finding it hard to understand what Hope means. It helped me to learn about the two sins against the virtue of Hope: Presumption and Despair. I couldn’t get a grip on what Hope meant without seeing its absence. When we are content with life, then hope seems irrelevant. When we are thrown into a storm, then we feel that defiant struggle to stand upright and keep our eyes on the goal.

This year I had expected to have an easier time. I had three children enrolled in outside education. I was looking forward to calmly homeschooling just two children with time over to play with the pre-schooler. Now I have six children home, including Four Teenage Boys, so maybe it’s just as well I’m not leading any choral endeavours right now!

So, I am still sad, but I see a big challenge and I know that God gives us the grace necessary to serve Him in this life and to obtain eternal life in the next. I won’t be indifferent. I won’t forget God. I’ll put time aside every day to make a Spiritual Communion. I’ll keep finding ways to help my family. It’s not the path I was expecting, but God knows what He’s doing.

Opinions by blog authors do not necessarily represent the views of Corpus Christi Watershed.

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About Veronica Brandt

Veronica Brandt holds a Bachelor Degree in Electrical Engineering. She lives near Sydney, Australia, with her husband and six children.—(Read full biography).

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President’s Corner

    New Bulletin Article • “14 September 2025”
    My pastor requested that I write short articles each week for our parish bulletin. Those responsible for preparing similar write-ups may find a bit of inspiration in these brief columns. The latest article (dated 14 September 2025) discusses OFFERTORY ANTIPHONS and contains a wonderful quote by Archbishop Fulton J. Sheen.
    —Jeff Ostrowski
    PDF Download • Draft Copy (Pamphlet)
    A few days ago, I posted a draft copy of this 12-page pamphlet with citations about the laity’s “full, conscious, and active participation.” Its basic point or message is that choir directors should never feel embarrassed to teach real choral music because Vatican II explicitly ordered them to do that! We’ve received tons of mail regarding that pamphlet, with many excellent suggestions for improvement. Please feel free to chime in!
    —Jeff Ostrowski
    “Entrance Chant” • 23rd (Ordinary Time)
    This coming Sunday, 7 September 2025, is the 23rd Sunday in Ordinary Time (Year C). You can download the “Entrance Chant,” conveniently located at the feasts website. I also recorded a rehearsal video for it (freely available at the same website). The Communion Chant includes gorgeous verses in FAUXBOURDON. I attempted to create a rehearsal video for it, and it’s been posted at the feasts website, called by some: “church music’s best kept secret.”
    —Jeff Ostrowski

Quick Thoughts

    Karl Keating • “Canonization Questions”
    We were sent an internet statement (screenshot) that’s garnered significant attention, in which KARL KEATING (founder of Catholic Answers) speaks about whether canonizations are infallible. Mr. Keating seems unaware that canonizations are—in the final analysis—a theological opinion. They are not infallible, as explained in this 2014 article by a priest (with a doctorate in theology) who worked for multiple popes. Mr. Keating says: “I’m unaware of such claims arising from any quarter until several recent popes disliked by these Traditionalists were canonized, including John XXIII, Paul VI, and John Paul II. Usually Paul VI receives the most opprobrium.” Mr. Keating is incorrect; e.g. Father John Vianney, several centuries ago, taught clearly that canonizations are not infallible. Archbishop Fulton J. Sheen would be another example, although clearly much more recent than Saint John Vianney.
    —Corpus Christi Watershed
    Vatican II Changed Wedding Propers?
    It’s often claimed that the wedding propers were changed after Vatican II. As a matter of fact, that is a false claim. The EDITIO VATICANA propers (Introit: Deus Israel) remained the same after Vatican II. However, a new set of propers (Introit: Ecce Deus) was provided for optional use. The same holds true for the feast of Pope Saint Gregory the Great on 3 September: the 1943 propers (Introit: Si díligis me) were provided for optional use, but the traditional PROPRIA MISSAE (Introit: Sacerdótes Dei) were retained; they weren’t gotten rid of. The Ordo Cantus Missae (1970) makes this crystal clear, as does the Missal itself. There was an effort made in the post-conciliar years to eliminate so-called “Neo-Gregorian” chants, but (contrary to popular belief) most were retained: cf. the feast of Christ the King, the feast of the Immaculate Conception, and so forth.
    —Corpus Christi Watershed
    Solemn “Salve Regina” (Chant)
    How many “S” words can you think of using alliteration? How about Schwann Solemn Salve Score? You can download the SOLEMN SALVE REGINA in Gregorian Chant. The notation follows the official rhythm (EDITIO VATICANA). Canon Jules Van Nuffel, choirmaster of the Cathedral of Saint Rumbold, composed this accompaniment for it (although some feel it isn’t his best work).
    —Corpus Christi Watershed

Random Quote

Participation at Mass must be “above all internal” (§15), and: “The faithful must be taught to unite themselves interiorly to what the ministers or choir sing, so that by listening to them they may raise their minds to God.”

— Musicam Sacram (5 March 1967)

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