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A Dad’s Dilemma • I pray and God determines.

Richard J. Clark · November 18, 2016

HEN WORKING hard and being stretched too thin and in too many directions, one might very well question one’s life choices. Every day I struggle with being a dad and working for the Church in many capacities, dealing with professional politics as a matter of routine, and ultimately caring for both parishioners and family.

Yet working for the Church is wholly at odds with having a family and being present for them. Gone over twenty hours on a weekend. Home three to four nights after my children have gone to bed. This doesn’t work. My wife carries the burden. My kids do. On Monday mornings, my two-year-old has recently taken to saying “We got Daddy back!” I don’t know the answer and have written on this subject before.

Overwork for the sake of politics and professional survival is ubiquitous. Add to it dedication to one’s art and calling, and the result is quite a schedule! There’s never enough time.

But we work for the Church because we must. Frankly, I don’t know what else to do with my life. I pray, and God determines my path.

UT THIS WEEK is a week with many blessings. I can’t complain. A new work was premiered. I was asked by a publisher to contribute a new work. I have the opportunity to conduct the orchestral version of John Rutter’s Requiem and also perform with the amazing Richard Kelley. One week. Absolutely no complaints.

But such is also the culmination of many seven-day workweeks, and composing after the kids are in bed. I want to be present for those in the parish. But I want and must be present for my family. It’s non-negotiable.

I want to do it all. I can’t. I pray and God determines.

At the moment I’m at a loss for the proper balance and direction. But I do know that we must sing sacred music because we love. We yearn for our families because we love them greater than anything imaginable. We trust in God because He loves.

I pray and God determines.

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About Richard J. Clark

Richard J. Clark is the Director of Music of the Archdiocese of Boston and the Cathedral of the Holy Cross.—(Read full biography).

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“Oh, how the Symposium echoed the words of Cardinal Merry Del Val: …choosing only what is most conformed to Thy glory, which is my final aim. In one short and fast paced week, the faculty and attendees showed me the hand of God and our Lady working in our lives. The wide range of education—from Gregorian Chant, jazz modes in organ improvisation, to ‘staying sane’ while leading a choir—were certainly first-class knowledge from the best teachers of the art. However, the most powerful lesson was learning how to pray as a choir. The sacrifice of putting songs together, taking time to learn the sacred text, meditating on the church teaching through the chants, and gaining the virtues required to persevere in these duties were not only qualities of a choir but of a saint. The sanctification of the lives of the attendees was a beautiful outcome of this event … and that in itself is worth more than a beautifully-sung Solesmes style chant!”

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I continue to search for the most beautiful way to present the “pure” Editio Vaticana scores. (Technically, the “pure” rhythm of the official edition is what everyone is supposed to use.) You can download my latest attempt, which is the Introit for this coming Sunday: Feast of the Most Holy Trinity. Because this is not an ancient feast, the Introit had to be adapted (perhaps around 750AD). Prior Johner says the adaptation is “not an entirely happy one.”

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