In my experiences as a Catholic Church musician, the following conversation has often occurred:

    “Jeff, why don’t you ever play the piano at Mass? Why do you play only the pipe organ?”
    “Because the piano is too much of an emotional, sentimental instrument.”
    “But the piano can be very beautiful.”
    “I agree that the piano can be very beautiful, but the correct musical instruments must be used in the correct
    places at the correct times.”
    “OK, Jeff, you agree that the piano is beautiful. Well, God is beautiful. Why not play piano at Mass? It moves me.”
    “When it comes to the Church’s public worship of Almighty God and the reënactment of the sacrifice of
    Calvary, we have to make sure that the music is of a certain seriousness, loftiness, and dignity.”
    “You must not like the piano, Jeff.“

I’ve never had any success whatsoever in convincing people that I love the piano. Therefore, I would like to share with you two recordings I made when I was a sophomore in high school (1998). You can tell these are “live” recordings (no editing) because towards the end of the MacDowell, you can hear members of my family talking and then slamming the door.

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                    Edward MacDowell Etude de Concert    •        Nikolai Medtner Fairy Tale

Pope St. Pius X wrote in an official Church document (1903): “The employment of the piano is forbidden in church, as is also that of noisy or frivolous instruments such as drums, cymbals, bells and the like.” Although the piano is a beautiful instrument, I agree with Pope Pius X.

“Music is to be heard, not seen”

People who didn’t like children very much used to say, “Children are to be seen not heard.” In other words, children were to keep their mouths shut.

In my mind, however, music is to heard not seen. I think watching people make music distracts from the pure joy that comes from listening. I’m sure others will disagree strongly with this opinion of mine.

Below are video versions the same two recordings (from above). I simply cannot focus on the music as well when my eyes are “watching” something: do you agree?

Incidentally, I also think there are many reasons why the choir or cantor at Mass should not become a “center of attention.” Pius X seems to agree, when he said: “It will also be fitting that singers while singing in church wear the ecclesiastical habit and surplice, and that they be hidden behind gratings when the choir is excessively open to the public gaze.”

Piano Culture

Not only was the piano a huge part of my life for many years, but the whole culture of the “golden age pianists” played a huge role in my life. I drew many sketches of the great pianists, and here are some examples:

However, my sketches were nothing compared to those of my mother, who has a natural talent for art: